if you really knew me.

You would know that I want to die right now. I want to get in the bath, take a box of painkillers and slash each wrist.

You would know that I put so much effort into my appearance because I want to leave a pretty corpse. A thin, pretty, perfect corpse. But I'm not perfect yet.

You would know that I truly believe that I am hideous. I cannot understand why anybody would ever want to be with me. I am disgusted by myself and the way I look.

You would know that I treat everyone with complete love and devotion because thats what I feel I lack from the people in my life. I feel I lack acceptance.

You would know that I am worthless.

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